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New Years Day! Happy New Years!

This is usally a good time for reflection, because one gets a sense that with a new year comes the possibility of a new start. If there are changes you'd like to make, why not make them now? People make resolutions. They say "This is what I want to be different about my life", and then make a plan, and shoot for those things.

I, like a lot of people, enter into this reflection.

Here's my plan. Today, and I think its good to start with very immediate things...On my lunch break, I intend to go to Borders to buy some books. I'm going to buy a day planner, "IV" by Chuck Klosterman, and maybe some other things. While I hate to start the year with something like "buying stuff", my hope is that it will allow me to stay focused and disciplined in seeking the things I want to be doing. I hope to plan out my weeks and days, and that maybe then I will be more productive and purposeful in the way I'm living my life.

I want to take some trips this year. In the spring, I want to go to NY, and in the summer, Boston. If I have to go by myself to do these things, then fine. I really want to get some different types of experiences under my belt. My hope is that if I plan this stuff out, I will be more apt to actually do it, rather than just "wanting" to do it. My pastor Jeff also talked about the possibility of doing a mission trip this summer to Poland. Why not? If I can do those 3 trips, I will be happy with this aspect of my life.

I want my music stuff to start taking steps forward. I hope to plan out times in my week that I will spend actually trying to write and I hope I can be more productive that way. The fact that I haven't made much progress with this in the last 8 years is very dicouraging. I should be able to do this. I want to do this. I can do this. And yet, I'm not. I am thinking about asking my friend Mike if he will take some time to record Heather and I, so we can have some demos and stuff.

I hope to be consistent with my spiritual life. I hope God will take away some of the things I'm wrestling with. Perhaps he could take away my fear. Perhaps he could show me, and allow me to experience his pleasure and love, rather than the blurry picture I get now. I'd like to be more confident in Him, and I know I lack faith and trust.

So I hope Janurary can be an Organizational Month. I will get my stuff together, and hopefully set up 2007 to be a productive year.